Men – we are not mind readers any more than you are!
This isn’t a ranty post I promise. Its more of an angsty –
actually kinda sad post. But also a little mad at the same time.
“Mr I” – the guy with whom I had many months build up only
for it to kind of fizzle into an awesome friendship, recently dropped a
bombshell. The “I like you” bombshell. Now obviously I kinda knew this a few
months ago given our relationship at the time. But then when you meet up
several times and are basically just hanging as friends with nothing physical
and then don’t see each other for 6 weeks what’s a gal supposed to think? AND
especially considering the last time I tried to bring up a conversation about
where we were I got relentlessly mocked and made to feel like a total Muppet, I
wasn’t prepared to go through with that again so…I just left it.
And then this gal got on with things. Having fun, dating etc.
Hey we never said we were exclusive. Far from it. Heck we never said we were
anything to be honest. Yet somehow the green-eyed monster has reared its evil
little head when I started dating someone new. And not even dating as yet, a
simple second date and you could smell the jealousy in the air.
And now I feel like the bad guy! And seriously – where was
this declaration 2 months ago? You know – when I was crazy about him? Why now?
Despite many (many) conversations with Panda and other
girlfriends, I still don’t have the answer. But I don’t know what to do. He
says he doesn't know what he wants, he knows things weren't working out between
us, but he still wants us to be more than friends.
Ugh! This is hard! Or maybe its not. Really you can’t force
these things, and the bottom line is…I don’t feel that way any more. But I would hate to loose him from my life – just not at the price
of his feelings.
If only he was honest about them. I have a feeling his
downplaying this somewhat. But I can only take so much responsibility for
someone else’s feelings.
I just hope it is a simple case of pettiness and after a
couple of weeks he’ll realise hes being silly and we can go back to being mates. I hope that’s possible. Because as Harry and Sally once asked: “Can a
man and woman ever be just friends?”
